I took a break in February after my father passed away so I could be with my mom and try to heal. It’s still all surreal; almost like he is in the hospital and we are waiting for him to be released.
I really need to concentrate on getting a grip of this depression, I have a feeling it can consume me if I’m not careful. I am so thankful for Matt being here for me and standing strong even on the bad days, the days I’ve cried all non stop and can barely manage to get out of bed. There he is with a smile, kiss, & apple juice. ~sigh~ Think I’ll keep him.
I find my brain needing a creative outlet as well. It would be great if said outlet could generate a little extra income too but I’m not going to firmly press that at the moment. I can barely draw a stick person but I would love to doodle and maybe paint?
Get outside // I’ve all but become a recluse since dads passing. I go to work or I’ll go to Matthews then straight to my room when I get home. I want to sit on the deck to read or shoot my bow.
Walk 5 miles each week // With being outside I figure I need fresh air but also my body needs a little love too. I felt great when I was running and doing races (the most comfortable outfits I own come from here), I was in the best shape of my life. Since I’ve gained 25 pounds along with loosing motivation.
Become vegetarian // I rarely eat meats or fish so it only seems appropriate. I’ve opted for the lacto-ovo vegetarianism, I looooove cheese!
Bullet journaling // I have wanted to start a bullet journal for I don’t know how long now. It was overwhelming with all the styles and options of setting one up but I’m ready. I’ve made my list so now it’s time to get to work.
Read One Book // I’m currently reading three different books. Two of the books are self help type books and the other is Stephen King “Finders Keepers”. This isn’t normal for me, I’ve never tried reading more than one book at a time. I’ve noticed the self help books are harder to flip through because I’m trying to learn all I can.
There will be a lot of soul searching this month, I want to be comfortable in my body (which I’ve never really been), find my own personal style (I’m loving boho but also casual outfits), get closer to my faith, and learn to manifest opportunities that’ll help moving forward.