After a month away from the blog I’ve went through a small transformation, kind of like a butterfly wiggling out of its cocoon. It was uncomfortable, confining, and scary but I think it’s for the best.
I shed a relationship which I think is better as a friendship. I did learn a lot from the time we were together that I’ll carry with me for the rest of my life. I also relocated jobs, I landed a full time at the beginning of October which I love. The company is two companies under one roof so it’s super fast paced and there was and still is a lot to learn.
Sitting back reflecting on the year made me realize I’ve pretty much been living on autopilot too, just going through the motions day after day.
As for goals to achieve throughout the rest of the year:
• To become emotionally aware
• Keep trying to heal emotional wounds
• Becoming more comfortable and confident with myself
• Putting the focus back on freelance writing
This year has been tough, dad passed away in February which took a lot out of me and I’ve been struggling a lot since then but I am trying to deal with all the feelings that come with loosing someone, not just anyone but a parent. It all happened so suddenly, if I knew then what I know now I would’ve forced him to seek out help. I’m still trying to pick up all the pieces of my broken heart. November is also his birthday month, so there is that too.
I’m shifting into a healthier lifestyle, everything that happened this year made me realize ya only get one body and one life (as you’re not a cat), it needs to be nurtured and looked after with care not stuffed with greasy cheeseburgers and pizzas. The cooler weather makes it easier to get out for walks on the regular, which is the plan.
I have an amazing freelance client who I’ve been working with all year, she is kind of the perfect client actually. She’s been so understanding throughout the projects we’ve worked on. She offered me a huge project that i am very lucky to have the opportunity. I want to settle down, focus, and create killer content.